Michael Mack performs his one man show "Conversations with My Molester: a Journey of Faith" for nearly 200 guests, sponsored by Caring for the Soul: Faith in Recovery, The St. Paul Artist's Group, and The St. Paul Laity Group at St. Paul Catholic Church in Cambridge on March 29. Pilot photo/Christopher S. Pineo
That changed when Mack took the play "Conversations with My Molester: A Journey of Faith" home to his own parish. On March 29, he performed the play at St. Paul in Cambridge and took questions afterward from the clergy, parishioners and guests.
The play disclosed decades of Mack's life for the audience, in a narrative form aided only by the props on stage.
At age 11, abuse at the hands of his own priest in South Carolina left Mack traumatized. Mack used the words "wrestled" and "grappled" as he described his struggles with faith and sexuality after the event.
"Let's just say it was a dark angel that I wrestled with for a long time," Mack said.
The passing of years brought Mack the chance to meet the priest who abused him, and inspired Mack to create the play that he said remains a work in progress.
Father Michael Drea said the church welcomed Mack to perform there as part of healing the damage from the clergy abuse crisis.
"I went to see the play when it was over at B.U. at the beginning of the year. I felt that Michael had really captured his own journey very, very well, and his own sense of reconciliation and peace with God and the Church," he said.
Mack debuted the 90-minute play, directed by Daniel Gidron, in January 2012 at the Boston Playwrights' Theatre at Boston University.
"I needed to do it initially as a way to grapple with one of the major events of my life," Mack said.
He also saw a chance for reconciliation on a greater scale, which contributed to his decision to open St. Paul for the performance.
"I also felt that he had a very balanced approach, as he wrote that play and presented it, to show the effects of abuse not only within the Church, but within the wider context of society as well," Father Drea said.
Mack said he saw a need and a reason to allow audiences into his personal story by creating the play, which he wrote and performed.
He added that he felt a great connection with the audience that night because of sharing not only his story, but a common faith with the audience.
"This was the first time I have done it in a Catholic church, and done it for as large a Catholic audience. I felt like absolutely people were connecting with what I was talking about because this is a shared experience," he said.
He said he felt the performance gave the audience an opportunity to explore the events unveiled by the media in 2002.
After the performance, director of the Archdiocese of Boston's Office of Pastoral Support and Outreach Barbara Thorp joined the playwright on stage to field questions from the audience.
Thorp said she spoke to Mack about the play after an Advent Mass at St. Paul. She agreed to come and to let people know about the show.
"I was extraordinarily intrigued that someone would find a way of taking the path for their healing to tell their story through this one man play. I was also aware that when people tell their story, by virtue of telling it to someone, it is an enormous act of trust," Thorp said.
"I have never heard of anyone doing something like Michael has done, and so I was delighted that he had invited me," she said.
Questions after the play moved quickly from the personal experience of the creator, to the culpability of Church leadership in the crisis.
"It was not surprising to me. There are many aspects of the crisis, and one of them is certainly the element of the Church leadership, and of the response and care of the Church leadership at the time," she said.
Mack said he felt grateful to have Thorp with him on stage.
He also said he thought the chance for the audience to ask questions provided him an important opportunity to reach out and interact directly with the audience.
"The first thought that came to my mind was, 'This topic means a lot of different things to a lot of different people.' I was glad to have somebody to share the QandA with me, to field some questions that I might not have yet the resources to handle," Mack said.